Coast

I'm on my third cup of tea today. I've been trying to relax as well as keep busy while aching all over. i've spent all day with my family, and that means stressing out and being surrounded by absolute pessimism. I am at a point in life where I need to figure out what exactly I'm doing. If creativity is important, if writing and painting is but a mere hobby. I've been researching different careers, planning out the rest of my life and for the longest time I couldn't figure anything out. At least not until I met Jordan, my witty, most amazing  boyfriend. The first step would be going to Israel for 10 days after my graduation. College, of course, comes right after and that will be a total of 2 years before I get an international degree for nursing. It all sounds so smooth, no rough edges, no downfalls. I've always told myself I'd never go into the medical field, but I have to face reality; there are no fucking jobs where I can write for a living and not be underpaid and hating every waking moment. like journalism. I love writing, I do, so I'll publish a novel on the side, while working as a registered nurse in a hospital, and traveling, living all around the world. I want the love of my life to live with me, and travel side by side with me, but he has to want to see the world just as much.